Throwing in the Towel

A couple of weeks ago Pastor Daniel Wurtz preached.  He was talking about how satan offers us so much to walk away from God and do what he wants us to do.  He talked about giving up and throwing in the towel.  Until I listened to it again today I didn’t  know he was talking about giving up all that God has for us and going back to your old way of life before you accepted Jesus or giving into sin. 

I was fighting a different battle inside me and all I really heard was that even though satan was trying to get Jesus to give everything up and throw in the towel He stood strong and refused.  I felt I was giving all I could to minister, and I kept hitting a brick wall.  My last encounter was making me reconsider everything. I wanted to give up. 

I went forward for prayer that day not because I was giving up on my relationship with the Lord. I was wanting to give up on doing what He called me to do.  As I walked back to my seat one person held out their hand in tears giving me a reassuring look and another called me over to tell me that they have been praying for me often and God told her to tell me not to throw in the towel.  Still not really realizing that they thought I was giving up and giving in to satan; God still reassured me through them that I was not supposed to give up what He had called me to do.   

Ministry is tough and allowing  Jesus to be your all in all isn’t for wimps.   He doesn’t tell us to put on our full Armor of God for nothing.  We are going into battle. If there is no battle there is a problem; satan doesn’t bother you if you aren’t right with the Lord.  He doesn’t have to.

God has been showing me that as Darly Black said, “If you are going to pray don’t worry!  But if you are going to worry, don’t pray!  Worry is rehearsing the worst.  Prayer is releasing it to the One  who’s in control.  You can’t do both at the same time.  Make up your mind: will you hold it, or will you hand it over?  Gods got this, the real question is does He have you? 

Also, when I get hurt or have problems my way of processing is venting it out with others. Although venting can be good in many cases; mine was not.  I was just having a pity-party and wanted my feelings validated. When I saw this it hit hard,  “Jesus loves so well! No one knew it was Judas! Love so well that people don’t know who your enemies are!”  God said to me, no longer take it to anyone, take it up to me.  Let me handle what your heart wants to confront. 

I will not be throwing in the towel! I will stand in the battle and fight the fight because ~ Gods got me, does He have you?